Not knowing is a place I don’t like to land in. I know with my rational mind that there’s really nothing I know for certain, nothing I have or own that is for mine forever, guaranteed, not even relationships. I can discuss the theory of this quite beautifully at some dinner party or with a friend. But being in it again, as I am now, is distressing. How I long for security. How I long for permanence. How I long for knowing. I don’t know what to do about my mother, who has Alzheimer’s. Continue her living with family or move her to a facility? I don’t know what to do about my career, whose heartbeat I can’t find these days. I am Tennessee Williams’ cat on a hot tin roof, my mind pacing, jittering from one thought to another, searching for solutions, searching for a hold I know isn’t there.
I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have
patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
That’s Rilke. And here’s another suggestion: Friend, don’t let the world run you crazy. The world ain’t even honking at you. You just think it is……..
What do you do when you don’t know what to do? Be still, I guess. Be still and valiant in the unknowing….
Karleen Koen — writing life 
I love this post! So beautifully put! I feel so so many of us feel like this for most of our waking hours.
I esp. love the part of “living it” your answer that is. When I ask or look for solutions..I ask connection, the angeles or God, to “see it” What ever “it” is…whatever I need to know, just please let me see it!
Next time I ask, I’m going to ask for both. To see it and live it!
Have a great week
Gretchen
Another beautiful, thought provoking, and feeling reminding post, Karleen. I love and admire your blog. Thank you for reminding me of knowing all that I don’t know … especially now. It’s a quirky comfort to sit in it … and know I’m not alone. love and light. Robin
Never try to force a solution. To do so invites disaster. An issue may not resolve itself as you thought/hoped it might, but in the long run, you will realize that the outcome was inevitable and right,